A few random updates

I”m amazed! i still have visits to my blog even though i haven’t been updating for the longest time..

Well.. that’s because there’s nothing much to update about especially since it’s the working life and there’s nothing really interesting about working everyday. But there have been much changes around. People going and people coming, my job scope being re-defined, and the one hundred other things that are happening at the same time. I haven’t decided whether the job scope re-definition it’s a good thing or not so i shall just wait before i give official comments. For behind the scenes, at the moment feelings, you can ask me personally.

Recently, I’ve been thinking… since i have nothing to do at home, i might as well just stay in the office to finish up my work. So I’ve also been staying back late in the office.. like 7pm, 8pm, 9pm late and reaching office earlier than usual on my own accord, unless i have events to attend after work… And i’m ok with it. I DON’T WANT to be ok with it. This is SO unhealthy. Don’t i have better things to do then finish up my work in the office?

My mp3 is repeating “5 loaves and 2 fishes” for the last… half an hour? It’s THE song for now.

I’M GOING TO PERTH! which is probably the most exciting thing that has ever happened this year! I can’t wait for it! I need the break, need the fresh new air that I’m going to breath there. But that’s only going to happen 2 months from now, though i talk about it like it’s going to happen next week. 

This post is so boring… i’m bored writing it and i’m bored reading it..

I need to make some cards.. make something.. do something… get my brain working again..

 

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Is there a reason why I can be working well (in fact, more than well) for a few weeks and suddenly i feel myself losing momentum and sinking deeper and deeper into dissatisfaction.

Is there a reason why i can be doing and doing and suddenly nothing seems to excite me anymore. I get discontented and everything just fades off into a grey.

Suddenly i don’t feel like doing anything or communicate with anybody at the work place. I don’t drag my feet into the office in the morning but i can’t wait to get out of work at 5.30. All i want to do is to be in a cold aircon room, wear a snug cardigan and bury my head in endless sleep. I think that attitude is evident in my work performance. That’s bad. But I just can’t get myself out of it. It’s a whole stretch of nothingness in the vast yellow sand.

I keep seeking something higher, something more. But i never know whether that dissatisfaction is holy and godly or just a pure complain-y spirit. I seem to be seeking but not knowing what i seek anymore.

I’m too young to be feeling like this. I should be stirred and passionate and motivated. And just burning with excitement and passion with bright hopes, dreams and expectations for the future. How did i EVER come to this stage.

For some strange reason.. i just want to play my guitar and sing. In recent times, i’ve been spotted to randomly start singing. It happened in TL during lectures where i just HAVE to sing the song that is in my head. It happens during meeting when people are engrossed in their discussion and i wander off in my head and the next thing i know everybody’s looking at me because I’m singing a song. It happens during lunch. And now it’s happening at work. I do like the feeling of that though. So i shall not try to stop it.

OOH i just remembered. Usually I would tell my sis about it but since she’s still on the plane to France and uncontactable. I would have to suffice with blogging. I was changing in my room today when SUDDENLY this HUGE lizard landed on the floor. It sounded like a glob of jelly landed SPLAT.. just like that. Followed by a “AH!”. that’s from me. And the lizard scampered up this storage thing that we have. So i left it as that. There’s no point in this, this information is only useful to my sis who lives in the same house and room.

The lizards in my house are huge because they have an unlimited supply of juicy insects to eat. There are probably generations of mosquitoes in my house. Just yesterday after one visit to the toilet, i killed a fat mosquito bursting with blood in my toilet (that’s probably the female, cos the females are the one that suck blood and etc.) then i killed another mosquito.. this one has no blood but it was big. Then later! I killed a small mosquito.. I think they belong to the same family and were going to have a feast on MY blood. See the sumptuous buffet that lizards have when they stay in my house.. They probably invite their whole clan to come feast together.

My body hates work. It breaks down ever so often these days..

It’s only 11.30am!

 

Sigh

… And this is how so very often I get so caught up with the things of God that I neglect the God whom all these things belong.

What happen to not letting this happen to me this year. Despite putting down so many things, i still have much on my hands.

It’s already 2 March yet i STILL feel that I’m not ready at all for the new year to come.

 

Peace

Weirdly enough, since the time I met up with Michelle and the cast for a talk about the upcoming drama and listened again to the song “Peace”. I’ve been grappling much with this concept and it’s been appearing very much in my journal.

 

Colour Challenge and card-y business

I’ve been WAITING for this week’s colour challenge because I’m home everyday and i went to laine’s to top up my supplies! And it’s here! yay!

I FINALLY got a circle cutter. after thinking about it for months.
And i’m soooooo happy about my purchase that i just had to use it when i made my card today. heh.

This card and more selling at cardsncraft.wordpress.com

And mummy says she needs a card for her colleague, so i gave her my stash of cards (seen and unseen on my blog) and she wanted a card on transparencies. And my previous attempts on transparencies card er.. just didn’t go very well. So i did some research on the net. And came up with this!

All i can say is… research pays off..
yes.. even for things like making cards.

I did take a picture of it with white background behind but i figured out that i like that I’m able to see through the card. Sooo my card AND my window grills.

*EDIT* OHHHHH how can i forget!??!??! credit for clear card idea to Jennifer Mcquire who graciously shared her idea on youtube. Thanks!

 

Another Card sold

It is NICE selling items I make, although my stock just keeps growing because my customers tend to want customised cards instead of cards that I’ve pre-made. Hmm.. I guess that’s my selling point..

Maybe i shall sell these unsold cards at a fund raising event or something..

Did i mentioned that this week have been SHIOKwith a capital S, H, I, O and K just lazing around, relaxing at home. Catching up on sleep and things set aside due to the busy work schedule and a tired mind. Yes, a much needed break indeed. I don’t deny that all of these is in God’s perfect timing. So for all the busy ones out there who crave for a break, you should have a wisdom tooth operation! And all the dentists say Yay..
But of course.. an idle mind is the devil’s playground. We humans are crazy.. Everything also cannot. It’s a wonder God doesn’t fling his arms into the air in frustration. And that’s why He’s such a good God.
God help me.

It’s driving class tomorrow, i hope the drowsiness of the painkillers doesn’t kick in when I’m maneuvering the car… People in Ubi look out! Haha or i might skip taking the painkillers tomorrow. Well, i AM in control of a machine that can potentially kill other people and myself.

And i’m really too young to die. I’ve come to realise that.. it is really a blessing to just be alive.. how easily we take things for granted.

 

After a Wisdom Tooth Op

Current Status after the operation:

- 1 wisdom tooth less
- Only porridge and soft food for EVERY MEAL since the Op. Getting sick of it, but it helps to minimise the pain.
- A swollen face that looks like i’m hiding a golf ball in my mouth, or have been punched really badly
- A very caring family
- Plenty of rest, sleep, movies, and a REALLY GOOD BREAK!

There’s actually not much pain. The injections for LA was uncomfortable. And for your information it’s MULTIPLE injections k. nobody told me about that! But it was bearable pain. The op itself is painless. It’s the sounds and the pressure you feel and the mental picture you have on how the dentist would pull out the teeth that scares. But other than that, there is no pain involved. I closed my eyes throughout the op cos i was afriad of what i would see going into my mouth, but it was also weird to see somebody so close looking at you. I only opened my eyes during the stitching stage. I always thought they used a needle! but no leh… it was just string.

And i actually didn’t feel any pain until… yesterday. And even then it’s just aching pain, although it was hard swallowing. And the pain usually occurs at night and after meals. I think a wisdom tooth op is more painless than an extraction. Just for the mere fact that it’s considered a surgery. Although minor, but still a surgery so they give more LA and more painkillers. I haven’t gone through an extraction la, and never want to! but it’s less painful then a trip to the dentist to clean your teeth!

Either that…. or…. my dentist is really good! muahahha

And no… the MC days does NOT mean I’m very free and can do a lot of things.

 

5 Days MC

In answer to my prayers for more rest, God gave me at least 5 days MC to be legimately absent from work for about a week.

Ok, what happened was that i went to the dentist yesterday, the one near victor’s house and wanted to ask him to come down and eat hokkien mee but i ended up being quite late so i didn’t, but i realise today that he ate dinner late too. So i should have just asked him out for dinner -_-”’

ANYWAY, i went to the dentist and waited for an hour +++ for the dentist! But i forgive him, cos he’s said thank you for waiting and was very nice to me. So i told him what’s wrong and his initial diagnosis was that it was my wisdom tooth giving me problems. Later he took an x-ray for me.. that was interesting! So i got to see how my left 2 molar teeth look like. And i’m proud to say that it looks healthy enough. No decay thank God! But there was just a wisdom tooth hiding in the corner and creating this little hole thing that makes food drop inside so i easily get inflammation and infection and decay and what not. Anyway according to the doctor, the long term solution is to get rid of the wisdom tooth by paying 500-800 bucks. SO for the time being, he gave me medicine for the inflammation, and it’s better now, as least not aching that much.

And at this point, Victor would disagree, because i was whining away to him on the way home from church today. Because at that time, it was SUPER achy. So i kept harping on the fact that my cheeks were swollen and i wanted to put my finger in to rub the area. He suggested biting some chewy sweet, but i didn’t have one on hand. So when he bought bubble tea, guess who stole a sip here and there. I was so excited that the pearls and coolness of the drink help soothe some of the achy-ness.

So I should be going for the op… though I need to find out from my boss when would be the best time to take it. So for all those who planned something with me in the next 2 weeks. I’m sorry, but it gotta wait till after I’ve recovered from the surgery.

Anyway, i’m quite excited about it! Partly cos of the MC.. 5 days off leh! where to get? But my dad was concerned that it might affect my performance since i’m undergoing probation. hrmph.. but no choice right. the wisdom tooth has just gotta go. And It’s a new experience… and…. well.. the dentist quite good looking.. one always needs some good motivation to go to the dentist.. besides the usual if you don’t go ah….blah blah blah..

 

Colour Challenge #4 – i love you

In light of valentine’s day, i just have to create some lovey dovey cards even if the colour combination isn’t the most conventional “love” colour. Wellllll true love comes in many different colours and forms what!!! haha

And of course… also selling it…. at the usual place…

I think my gums have been inflammed. Cos gums at my left bottom wisdom tooth is swollen and red and VERY achy. And it’s affecting my cheeks! Cos it’s swollen. And for the time being, i can’t chew anything there. So my right side teeth are getting tired from all that extra chewing. I think i need to see a dentist…

I don’t know if there’s any link, but my left ear has been perpetually blocked ever since i woke up with that inflammed gum.

Another mass interview today left me soooo tired. It’s the feeling that you get after you come back from a hectic youth camp that you just organised. So yeah. Extra tired this week, plus it’s going to be a early, long day tomorrow. So God, need your strength even more in the next week as i trudge through it without a good weekend’s rest.

And thanks othniel! for being so enthu about my card thingy. and making this.. i dunno what thing so that he can effectively advertise for me. THANK YOU!

 

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It’s back to work tomorrow…..

 

Need i say more?