If we’re not sick, we won’t remember how blessed it is to be healthy.
I was feeling a little unwell yesterday before I went for Wednesday service yesterday, but i went anyway and got home quite late. So today it actually blew up, i was in school till about 330pm and I was feeling so bad. I had a bad headache, fever and achy muscles. I add medicine all throughout the day but no use. I wanted so much to be better cos I wanted to go school tomorrow! I manage to make my way home, i was groggy and just pure tired.
ok.. long story short, i didn’t get better. My dad brought me to the doc. I was having a fever of 39.4 degrees. And the doctor was saying.. that’s quite high ah. Then inside me i was thinking, wah crazy, going to reach 40 degrees already. i was feeling so warm, i thought my lips were going to suddenly burst out in flames. But i ate dinner (no taste one) and my medicine and i perspire. And i’m feeling soooooooooo much better! no achy muscles at least. that’s the worse.
I’m like so happy i’m feeling better. When i’m not sick, sometimes i want to be sick, so that at least got excuse to rest. But then when I’m really sick, like fever sick, it’s so xing ku. Then when i feel better, ah i feel so blessed.
And this marks my official day of graduation. For 15 years of studies, i only spent 10 secs on stage receiving an empty hard cover file to put my cert in. That moment was probably significant only to my parents, who were very happy and proud that I’ve graduated. My dad helped me robe up. And after I’m done, my dad said i looked nice in it. muahaha it was rather nice.. i don’t recall receiving much compliments about my looks from my parents.
One of the speaker looked like james.
And I think I’m feeling a little sick. Eurgh, i need some more sleep.
I had my very first worship leading session in school today. I wasn’t exactly nervous about it (until maybe 1 min before i actually had to start) , though i was a little daunted by the fact that I was the 2nd one to lead. But everything went very well, was very encouraged by their affirmation of all the students.
The one to one sessions with the Dean going through the song list, praying with me, and the feedback session was the most reassuring, I think it’s amazing how she strives to be present in all the activities of the students. Be it over lunch or just 5 minutes. It makes a huge difference. That’s something to learn!
I was present in a conversation when a young adult was talking to a youth pastor about serving in the youth ministry and how he does it. And there are just some things that you can’t run away from. There’s no short cut if you want to impact lives and make a difference in the youths. There are price to be paid and sacrifices to be made. That’s ministry. In the 1.5 weeks i’m here, i see that in the Dean. I see her hand in everything, i see her making herself available to those who needs help, i see her talking to the students as if we were the Dean. haha! i had lunch with her a couple of times already. So… it’s really nice. =)
Channel 8 is re-showing Herman’s show!! haha i’m like so hooked to the show even watching it once already. hahah he’s so cuteeeeeeeee..
My dad came back with dinner today at 8.30pm. We were all starving. Mei mei asked him what did he got for dinner. Outside food is a source of joy for us. Haha. And my dad starting naming off. Cai fan, Hor Fun, char siew rice and laksa. At the sound of laksa. This is how the conversation went.
Mei mei: YAY! i like Laksa!!
My dad: NO… I like papa! [laugh] why? cause when you like papa, you have everything.
Isn’t it so true..
When we have the Father, we have everything. So no point putting our focus on the gifts, they come and go. But when we have the Father, we will have everything.
2 days into the school term now. Waking up crazily early. Ok la, it’s not crazily early to a student but to someone who has been in Uni for 3 years and working, it’s crazily early when i wake up at 6. HAHA i used to wake up at 615 everyday when i was in JC and stayed back all the way till 5pm and continue waking up at that time the next day. I can’t seem to do that now, now i need rest..
School has been wayyyy good! I guess one of the main lesson I’m learning is how to unlearn everything I’ve learnt over the past years so that i can receive whatever that God has for me, instead of brushing everything away as “aiya, i’ve heard about this 10 million times” It’s really all back to basics, nothing absolutely new that I haven’t heard before, but yet many many basic and important principles that somehow gets forgotten as the years go by and I lose focus. And of course confirmation and assurance from our good God that I’m where I’m suppose to be now.
And extra extra blessing to have people who drive staying near me and who don’t mind coming all the way to my house to send me to school and home. And on weeks that i have to be in school at 730am, she mentioned that she would try to wake up early so that we could go to school earlier even though she doesn’t have to. I have morning teabreak and lunch provided so expenses are kept at minimum. Which is really a testimony to God’s provision since without income now, God cut down my expenses too.
So, I’m doing well in Tung Ling. It’s a good place. And jonny is helping out as a drummer in the worship team there, so at least I see a familar face everyday. 
Even with the whole week void of any working activities, i still haven’t found time to sit down and update my blog. Though having a break from work, didn’t give me a break from preparation of worship leading and cell leading. But somehow these doesn’t count as being busy.
School in Tung Ling is starting next week. And very happy at the idea of using the three months to seek God. I’m excited at what i can get out of it. Tired of just the activities and seeking for something deeper with God. Not satisfied with just the doing, but want to know the purpose of why I’m doing the things I’m doing. Not wanting to end up with great accomplishments but still am the shallow person. Sometimes i feel that I’ve been too absorbed or demanded by the activities and programs around that I’ve missed what truly important. And I don’t want it to stay that way.
Actually if I were to have my way. I would want to take a break these 3 months and truly focus on knowing God and myself in the process.
Weekends more hectic than the weekdays.
