Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Urghh did I say that I really don’t like these kinda topic.. First of all, they HAVE to specify a person. I was going to write to a thing.. or an event.. and then they have to add in MOST. like is there really a basis for comparison?
While I mull over the topic, I shall tell you what I did yesterday. I was on leave! In fact I’ve started my long leave taking from Friday, 17 and it stretches all the way to today. Well, I would really really miss my leave the most. So I shall spend this post talking about my leave.
Since it’s coming to the end of the year, I decided to be the filial daughter that I am and bring my family out for lunch. So i made all of them take leave to spend the afternoon together. So we went to Sizzler for lunch and then we went for a little shopping.
We went to New look. And New Look is now giving away $10 vouchers at their doorstep for all regular priced shoes. So we almost sprinted in and grabbed nice shoes. Long story short, I went home a happy person with 2 pairs of shoes.
I cleared my shoe cabinet at home and slotted in my 2 nice new pairs of shoes. And it was like I was in a spring cleaning rampage, because later I went to clear my clothes cupboard and my shelves to start clearing things. And i realized….
I have a lot of things!
I have too many pairs of shoes. Too many clothes. Too many stuff. Things that are bought, stashed and forgetten. I probably only use 10% of my things regularly. The others are left to collect dust and take up space. All these things that were calling out my name on the shelves at the shop are now only 5% used and then left at the back of my shelf.
The more I cleared, the more acutely aware of how many things I owned. And I wasn’t only half done. I still had other unpacked miscellaneous things on my study table, drawers and the like. As I looked around the house, to the many cupboards, shelves, boxes, things that belong to my family members. We are really living in abundance. Many things bought at the spur of the moment and used so little.
I can safely say that I’m not a spendthrift. I think much before I get things. But even then, I have no way of explaining the massive amount of products that I have at home. I guess, it hit me so hard because I could not account to God why these amount of things are in my possession, when there is a possibility of the money yielding eternity fruits in other areas. I cannot account to God why I need 10 pairs of shoes, a Wii Console, 10 sheets of nose pack, 2 packets facial masks, etc etc.
And for someone who have seen the poverty in other places. I wonder how would they feel if they came to my house and see these amount of things that I have! If I will come across as hypocritical when I say that God will meet their needs. And all of these things are considered luxurious because they are more than what I need.
I guess my point is this. It’s probably not that it’s wrong to have these things. But wasting things. That’s when my conscious starts to do some real stirring in my heart. And I am guilty of wasting.
If every change starts with awareness, I”m looking at fresh eyes that things that I see around me. And I hope this awareness will start reminding me to live with minimum. Just enough.
If I truly have a resolution for the new year. This is something that I really want to work on. So next time if you are in the shop together with me and I’m holding something in my hands. Please slap me on the head (or actually you can skip the slapping) and make me explain to you why I would need to buy all these things. Because one day, I’m pretty sure i have to give an account to how I’m spending the money that God is giving me. So might as well start now.
